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soooo. i forgot i had a livejournal. so i decided i would write in it because no one even uses these anymore anyways, but i think theyre pretty damn cool! so a lot has happened since i last wrote (which was jan 1st 2007). i finished my first year of college, made some friends, lost some friends, started writing to people in jail, got really close to co-workers...just lots of things. ive started my second year of college already and finally have a major! communications cause i know you were all dying to know. it feels good to finally not have to worry about it anymore. so yea the summertime i had a blast. i hung out with people from work and got really close to them. hadsome bad experiences, but in the longrun they led to good experiences. dont regret. live for the moment not the past. i did lose some friends over the summer, but i didnt even realize it until i got back to unh. people just arent what they seem anymore. as much as id like to think they are, thats just not the way it is. but thats ok, ive realized that the people you really need in your life is your family. they are ALWAYS there for you 100%. even when you feel abandoned by everyone else, your family comes through for you. for me, my boyfriend is also someone i need around. i trust him, he supports me, and doesnt judge me like everyone else. it feels good to have people like that around. as mean as it might be to say this, i dont care that i dont have friends from my high school, i honestly dont need them. you just have to remember whats important in life and go after your dreams. dont be held back by what people say or think, because their opinion shouldnt matter. you do what makes you happy, and thats all you should care about.
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[01 Jan 2007|07:29pm] |
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so i dont write in this anymore but im really bored and we're playing scene it and of course my partner doesnt appreciate me. plus the fact that no one else does either is just so fucking awesome. new year new life. god lets hope so cause my life is a piece of shit. and im doen writing now caus eim really pissed off not that anyone cares. ok so suck some more please.
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[17 Jul 2006|08:29pm] |
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is it normal to have a grudge against basically everyone? ummm yea cause i do. somehow everyone...and when i say everyone i really mean EVERYONE...pisses me off in some kind of way. stupid shit like dumb nicknames, and how people are friends with eachother, and how people think they're the shit when they really aren't and are actually kinda annoying because of it. jeezz and if you're thinking this is you when you read this, most likely you're right, because why the hell would i lie to you, cause honestly i don't care. people should realize that they suck at life and when they screw up it's gonna be different...obviously. do you honestly think someone else would make things go back to normal for you. id ont fucking think so. but whatever i guess people are just dumb.
ok so anyways...more complaining
i work monday-friday at 7 a.m. everyday, and i usually work until 5:00...[if you can't figure that out on your own that's 10 hours a day] sometimes even longer then that until like 6 or 7. plus i work on sundays from 10:30-5, so yea if you didn't get that either, i work everyday except for saturday. so all you people that think you're working so much and you're so tired....well you can kiss my fucking ass because if you had my job you'd be tired as shit everyday. ok so stop complaining. i dont complain about it except right now to get all you other fuck heads to shut up about it.
and honestly people, if you really cared you'd say something about it, not just ignore it, so PLEASE stop being so stupid.
ok that's all
<3 hope
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[09 Jul 2006|02:21am] |
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so i haven't written in this for a while. im kinda bored cause it's 2:24 in the morning, but im talking to a hot boy online so it's okay. ummm i actually dont really know what to write but whatever. im bored. ummm im tired from working now, and people should hang out with me when im not working cause that would be awesome.ok i guess that's all cause i can't think of anything else. okkkk bye!
<3 hope
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[23 Jun 2006|05:52pm] |
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so i think it's safe to say that summer pisses me off. and this is supposed to be my positive time. ughhh i like have no positive time. but whatever. that's why being positive is my all time goal. but yea whatever you dont care. so umm if anyone would like to drink with me anytime let me know. cause im very bored and i dont have a job yet so i have a lot of free time. except friday nights and sunday day. but yea. keep that in mind.
umm nothing has happened lately. i wish i had a life. cause that would totally be sweet. morrill asked if i wanted to go watch stpeh play some ball in rochester, but her game kinda started at 5:45 and it's 5:55 right now. hahah great timing. and i am very not pleased about millers being changed cause of rain. cause guess what now next friday im working night so sweeet i might not be able to go. sweet and im babbling on and on right now and guess what...YOU LOVE IT! but ok im probably gonna go watch a movie now or try to find someone to hang out with. ok that's all. bye
<3 hope
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[22 May 2006|08:46pm] |
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[28 Apr 2006|10:26pm] |
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soo im going to UNH. im pretty excited too cause not only do i know people that are going there but basically yea you know why i like it so much!
umm i still dont have a prom date and its in like 2 weeks. probably not a good thing. technically i kinda do but im hoping that the kid doesnt remember cause the situation was totally weird. yea you know what i mean again.
so im bored. this is the first time ive been home for like a long time since wednesday. and i have practice at 8 tomorrow morning. that'll be sweet. but we really need it.we're like in a hardcore hitting slump. it sucks so much. i hit really well today though but none of us can hit like every game. our consistency is horrible. oh well i guess we just gotta do our best which is pretty shitty right now.
umm i dont know what else. so yea bye.
<3 hope
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[13 Apr 2006|10:36pm] |
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jeez i hate prom :(
efffing gay
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[09 Apr 2006|09:28pm] |
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umm hate stuff such as people, school, prom, boys....all of ht eabove
can't wait to graduate and go to college.
ok thats all
<3 hope
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[23 Mar 2006|10:56pm] |
you know what FUCK PEOPLE
ok piss the fuck off. you know i CAN talk to someone and tell them something and then not tell someone else if i dont want TO. OK GET USED TO IT PEOPLE. I DONT TELL EVERYBODY EVERYTHING. IF YOU REALLY WANTED TO KNOW SOMETHING YOU CAN ASK ME AND NOT WRITE GAY CRAP OK. YEA THATS ALL
BYE!!!!!!!!
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[17 Mar 2006|05:19pm] |
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sooo it's ST.PATRICK'S DAY!!im so excited. yayyy. right now im chillin w/ deanna, derek, and mike. yea they're basically amazing. we're gonna have a blast.
soo i love kaitlyn. trust=amazing. and summer and class trip=amazing. i love it. but yea my friends are hot and i love them.
school is ok i guess. boys are gay though. that's ok though im used to them sucking. but ok thats all i dont know im going to chill.
<3 hope
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[28 Feb 2006|06:26pm] |
i hate my life
yea that sums it up
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[22 Feb 2006|09:11pm] |
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i got into UNH. yea im the woman. i didnt get into the program i wanna do though so its kinda pointless to go there now i guess. sweet. ummm any suggestions of anywhere else i should apply??
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[05 Feb 2006|10:23pm] |
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this is me being optimistic... :)
i think that is my new goal.
ok thats all bye
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[02 Feb 2006|12:08am] |
i think i might be depressed.
that's the only answer i can come up with for all of my mad mood swings and hating everyone/everything and thinking i have no friends, and feeling inferior to everyone, and thinking im not good enough for anyone, and thinking everyone is trying to steal my 2 friends away from me, and so much more stuff.
why the hell do i feel this way. i just want someone to tell me why :(
im sick of feeling like this :(
help please
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[19 Jan 2006|11:51pm] |
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so i guess i didn't really have a new years resolution this year. to be perfectly honest I was actually a little messed up so it didn't even cross my mind to have one. but I'm making one now..so you're all aware. so this is my plan. I am required to be HAPPY & POSITIVE (yes happy...and i guess positive). I have kinda been sucking at life, so I think I should probably fix that.
and here's another thing. I'm going to find myself a lovely boy who will make me happy. cause I kinda need a Valentine. actually more like I need to find me and Jill dates for the semi in February, cause since she probably has to go I figured I would go and dance myself to death, since that's pretty much my life. and boys are lovely anyways...sometimes I guess, and having one around would be nice.
but anyways today was good cause I had no midterms and I went shopping and I am a maniac at bak handspringing now. It is basically taking control of me because I'm gonna get a little obsessive over it. and I bought 2 new cds today. yayyy they're sweet. but yea I think I'm all done talking now. Bye
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[14 Jan 2006|05:35pm] |
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sooo i fucking hate everything!!! everyone can go fuck themselves and die because i really wouldnt care. yesss EVERYONE FUCKING SUCKS AND IS GAY!
ok BYE!
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[02 Jan 2006|04:16pm] |
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sooo it's 2006. this year i guess i have to love everything. so starting now i love life..i dont really know if im lying or not but it doesnt even matter. its a new year...forget the past and move on. thats all. so if i am negative..im ordering everyone to punch me in the face cause i dont want this to be a crappy year. especially since its senior year and everything. yea ok bye.
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[28 Dec 2005|06:02pm] |
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sooo i dont know. im kinda sick of life. i need change. change for like everything. appearance, personality and like what i do. i dont even know. im just bored and sick of waiting for stuff i want that im never gonna get...example=boys..one specific one. and i kinda wanna punch his other eye so that one will be bloody too but from my fist instead of ice.
grrr im just kinda mad that everyone is gay, and i am wicked nice to everyone now. like cant someone just like me for once in my life. jeezz my timing sucks as always. whatever.
and all im gonna do from now on is be crazy at the table and all that shit cause that's all im doing for the rest of my life. i will find a connection and everyday i will just be a fuckin crazy ass. i dont even care.
the only people i love right now are jill and steph. cause i dont think i could ever be mad at them.
everyone else is poop.grrrrrr yea thats all
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[18 Dec 2005|08:29pm] |
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WHY DOES EVERYONE HATE ME?
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